Leaving the path

by Shae on April 27, 2016

 

tasmania 2015 502

 

I can’t say I’ve ever really stuck to the path, but I guess I’ve kind of wandered on a track? While I am a massive fan of parenting without absolutes, there has been a certain amount of comfort gained from at least being able to have some sort of recognisable philosophy to attach myself to. If only somewhat.

The last year, for me, has been pretty jarring. The depth of the needs of my children and the reality of how long term their quirks and difficulties are a lot to come to terms with. I guess I thought that many of the issues we had been dealing with were something that would be grown out of or made better. And I had to face the fact that I needed to change the way I parent my kids.

Does this mean I’ve gone to hitting, arbitrary punishments, and standardised school-at-home? Absolutely not. But we do have visual charts, pretty strict morning and night routines, and a tutor. So basically, nothing like how I planned.

Suddenly even the tracks I had been treading seemed awkward and even the somewhat philosophies didn’t fit.

Also, what of blogging? I started writing here because I loved reading other blogs of people who walked a similar path and I wanted to add to those voices. I let people peek into our lives so that our version of normal would be more visible. To let people see that they could make different choices for themselves and their families.

When we started down the path of “what the actual fuck are we doing and we need to change lots of things” I knew I couldn’t put it into words, and some of it was simply to raw to share. And where would I fit in that online sphere? I’m not an unschool blogger, but we don’t school at home either. I am not going to solely focus on my children’s neurodiversity, but not to speak about it is to ignore a massive part of our lives and silence conversations that need to be had. My kids are too big to be talking about homebirth, breastfeeding, co-sleeping etc, so do people want to hear about chores and being on instagram with my kids? Maybe. I decided to just let it be for a while.

 

Fast forward to now.

We are the same family we were a year ago. We left the path and forged our own which has been equal parts terrifying and empowering. Still being my own guruย and simply trying to make the best choices for us on any given day.

Then I came back to the blog. I was ready! I wanted everyone to take a peek again. I wanted families walking a similar path to see that they are not alone, and I wanted to add my voice to those already out there. So I tried to write and nothing came. I was getting so frustrated-until I realised that I was trying too hard. Trying to write these big, profound posts.

I thought about it, and actually I don’t have anything very profound to say.

I’m just a girl, standing in front of the internet, talking shit.

 

But hey, maybe the very boringness of our quirky life is worth blogging about.

 

 

 

 

 

Be Sociable, Share!

{ 10 comments… read them below or add one }

Tan April 27, 2016 at 1:44 pm

It certainly is. Keep it up.

Reply

Kellie April 27, 2016 at 4:36 pm

And we are just humans sitting in front of the internet peeking into other peoples lives to gain a broader understanding of life outside our own shit. Thank you for sharing.

Reply

Renee | About a Bugg April 27, 2016 at 5:34 pm

Love that you’re back and looking forward to reading whatever it is you have to say… good, bad, boring or otherwise.

Reply

Dorothy April 27, 2016 at 7:46 pm

I think our lives are only boring to ourselves. I love reading about other people’s lives. I love seeing that I’m not alone in how I do things, or learning about other ways. I’ve always enjoyed what and how you write. I hope you keep it up.

Reply

Sara @ Happiness is here April 28, 2016 at 3:33 pm

I enjoy your posts! :)

Reply

Sazz April 28, 2016 at 8:06 pm

“Iโ€™m just a girl, standing in front of the internet, talking shit.” Hahahaha I fucking loved this

Reply

Rosie May 4, 2016 at 8:40 am

The important thing is that it is your path. Other people’s lives are always much more exciting. Would love to hear more :)

Reply

corrie May 6, 2016 at 12:24 pm

Glad you’re back! We start HSing one of mine next term and I’m excited and nervous all at once. Meanwhile she’s counting down the days….every.single.day! I think everything evolves and you learn as you go.
Corrie:)

Reply

Ivy May 10, 2016 at 6:03 pm

I agree. At the end of the day I am not following a philosophy, I am following the needs of my children. Look forward to reading your blog into the future.

Reply

Bianca May 23, 2016 at 9:51 pm

I always seem to read your blog when I need to most.
Feeling a little lost and overwhelmed with decisions
As we’re in the middle of trying to work things out with what our family needs
I hope to be where you are in a years time… With a strategy that will work for my kids instead of trying to put triangles into round holes.
Thank you

Reply

Leave a Comment

Previous post:

Next post: